i am not sure if i will be writing about meeting with Master. i may keep that to myself. i know its going to be very personal and i may want to keep it that way.
So 2 exact weeks from today i will be physically meeting Him. i will be standing in front of Him. i cannot explain in words all of the emotions that i feel. Excited, nervous, etc. the list goes on. i am also a little down. i am already getting emotional about Him leaving me. i can feel the emotion building up in my throat. i know i will be a mess when He leaves. The emotional connection that i have for Him will be enhanced and for Him to be removed from me will hurt. He knows this already. Clearly He knows me very very well.
Last night Master asked what my expectations were and if i had any questions and asked me to think about them over night so we could discuss them today. i think the discussion is done and i know what to expect. i would much rather go into seeing Him knowing what is going to happen then not. Like i've said, i do need to prepare myself.
i was supposed to get a tattoo today. i cancelled the appointment. In actuality i think now its best to wait to get it after i see Master. It will make what i am getting more meaningful. i do want a part of Him on me. i do have my other tattoo that He had me get, but this new one i drew specifically for Him.
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