Ever have something big coming up, like a night out, or a wedding to go to, or a big party and know that you want to and need to prep. Yea, imagine meeting your Master for the first time. Imagine the prep there!
i have exactly one month. i am disappointed in myself for not preparing sooner. i wanted to look better. Look perfect, for Him. So how do i prepare to look perfect in four weeks? i wish someone would give me some ideas and insight. Perhaps i will ask around.
i am very nervous and excited to meet Him. i have no idea what is planned, if anything. Some days i think it would be great just to hang out and talk and other days i think it would be great just to kneel at His feet awaiting His order. A ton of things and scenarios run through my mind. i want to be good for Him in all of them. i don't want to disappoint Him, and i want to make sure that He still wants me as His after. i am not being dramatic when i say that i could not bare to loose Him.
That being said, i feel a little bit better today with my connection with Him. It's been hard, like i stated, with the bad weekend and then Him being gone yesterday. Granted i understand, and He did make a good point. If He isn't well, how can He take care of me? i do know all of that, but it still doesn't make me miss Him any less.
Just one of those eb and flow weeks. It's okay because i know it will get better. Maste always makes everything better.
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