i have so much reading to catch up on on Fet. It looks like there are some good feeds i should be reading but i just haven't had the time. Maybe tomorrow at work. Why are there so many personal ads also? i've seen a ton.
Master and i spoke about my finances today. He is going to be sending me something to keep track of them on. i know it will help. i look forward to it. i hate being so stressed out over it. i shouldn't be stressed about it either because it is something Master controls and i have no say over it so it shouldn't matter anyway. my dear friend reminded me of that.
So this "dating" thing rears its ugly head again. i spoke with my bff about it today and explained to her how i felt. As always, she explains things good. She is very very good at that. Anyway, so she explains these "dates" as just company. It was a completely perfect. Then Master said He felt it was fine because He doesn't want me to sit home alone while He is not around. On one hand (here we are with hands again), i am glad that i have permission to go out, and the other hand sorta wanted Him to say it will never happen. That i am for Him only. Which is the only thing i want to be. It's quite the contradiction. i need to talk to Him more about this so i can understand what He is thinking.
Honestly this sucks................................
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